i go back to may, 1937

I see them standing at the formal gates of their colleges, I see my father strolling out under the ochre sandstone arch, the red tiles glinting like bent plates of blood behind his head, I see my mother with a few light books at her hip standing at the pillar made of tiny bricks with the wrought-iron gate still open behind her, its sword-tips black in the May air, they are about to graduate, they are about to get married, they are kids, they are dumb, all they know is they are innocent, they would never hurt anybody. I want to go up to them and say Stop, don't do it--she's the wrong woman, he's the wrong man, you are going to do things you cannot imagine you would ever do, you are going to do bad things to children, you are going to suffer in ways you never heard of, you are going to want to die. I want to go up to them there in the late May sunlight and say it, her hungry pretty blank face turning to me, her pitiful beautiful untouched body, his arrogant handsome blind face turning to me, his pitiful beautiful untouched body, but I don't do it.


I want to live. I take them up like the male and female paper dolls and bang them togetherat the hips like chips of flint as if tostrike sparks from them, I say;

Do what you are going to do, and I will tell about it.

el' chippo

The hippo, i dont know you very well but your probably the best person ive met for a while. Even though i flirt with your mum, and make your dad jealous, you still talk to me. And thats pretty cool hey. You know the keyboardist from Short Stack, thats also pretty cool, it just gets me one step closer to killing the lead singer for stealing my hair.

You and i should see each other more.

p.s You have no boyfriend, thats also pretty cool

ohman

And also !

I hate Brisbane for talking all the nice people, Sydney is full of retards.. nobodies genuine here.

life in cartoon motion-

I haven't really written anything in quite some time, i feel a sense of obligation to do so. I think i left off when my parents where going away, well they left, and came back already. It went by so quickly and all i did was eat and sleep, coupled with 360, TV and a smidgen of Internet use i suppose. Don't get me wrong, i had fun and everything, but i just wish it lasted longer. I'm not really a big fan of parental interaction, or any form of interaction really, unless there is a monitor and some keys to play with.

I'm planning on doing my HSC at tafe within the next few months, because i need a UAI to do my Bachelor of Applied Design course. It's going to take a while, but its worth it i guess. I mean, its not like these are my real life goals or anything, they just have to keep my parents and other "concerned" people at bay while i try to find motivation and drive. I think calling it a distraction sum's it up pretty well.

I like the idea of there being a Third Renaissance, with man engineering his own demise and what not. Sounds like the best party ever.

p.s, The tittle for this is from that raging homosexual singer, Mika's album.

new

Fun fact, i hate people who hide behind emotions that they don't even fully understand. Especially girls,

Life's great though, its like I'm having my own little mental Renaissance

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I'm not destitute, I'm living like this by choice.